Doubts

I KNOW.

I know he's keeping something...I know his secret. Something he wouldn't tell me. He wouldn't tell me at this point in time.

It hurts me, especially as time goes by...as our relationship becomes deeper. I ask myself why don't I tell him I know? Why don't I just leave if I have no courage to confront the truth? Must I always suffer in silence every time he's not home? That I doubt the things he says about being somewhere alone or with his friends? That I always think he's just telling me half truths?

His love...his feelings towards me are as authentic as pure gold. He holds these feelings in his heart...so precious that he protects it at all cost. I appreciate that...I do! But knowing breaks my heart...knowing makes me doubt...makes me insecure...knowing makes the trust slowly fade away. I am sad....I am angry....but I just don't know what to do.

Must I move on...back to my comfort zone? I don't know.....It doesn't help that I know.