My boyfriend is on board a plane right now to come and visit me...from a continent away. One of the last things he told me before boarding the plane was, "...so this is how to love someone...." Such a sweet thing my guy is! I have not seen him for 8 years. I never had a decent conversation him until a few months ago when he called me up after finding me Facebook. We've known each other for 3 decades. Never in my life have I dreamed to be with him. To be honest...he is not the man of my dreams. To be really truthful about it as well, I have never pined for anyone in "real life"....movie actors not included. But my boyfriend is someone that I've always wanted in my life....someone who loves me more than I do. Someone who is into me!
So, I've been having this mixed feelings for the past week. I just couldn't organize myself. My anxiety level is up to the roof! I could not concentrate. My sleep is disturbed.....except for last night since I have been so tired from work. Tomorrow night....we will be together. I don't mind not sleeping at all but if I do...I hope its a more peaceful one.
I have fallen in love again. I hope this is for keeps. I promise to work harder in this relationship this time. My boyfriend seems to fill the void in me. I hope he will be my last boyfriend....that's a good start...........
